All of life’s decisions

I’ve made a fair number of life-changing decisions in my time. I haven’t regretted a single one, and I’m usually able to talk down the self-doubt with considerable confidence.

I have an interview next week for a job that, in theory and on paper, I am perfect for. It’s a job that I wanted before I found my current job, and I remember thinking, “How does one get this wonderful job?”

Wishing makes it so, as it turns out, because the person who holds said job recently e-mailed me and told me he was leaving and was recommending me as his successor.

Meanwhile, for once in my life, I wasn’t looking to leave my current job. But then I fell into the end-of-summer slump during which I was — literally — bored out of my mind at work.

This week, however, Fall Quarter started and I’m having a wonderful time. I looooove my job. Want to stay forever. Probably I could come back eventually, this being the largest employer in the county and all. But what if I can’t? What if I leave this job, which I also just happened to luck into through a stroke of serendipity, and never find happiness again?

Here’s the hilarious part…I’m still a temporary employee. Granted, everyone who’s ever spoken to me or received an e-mail from me wants me to stay, but it’s not necessarily in their hands.

So I’ve been trying to decide whether to leave a job I don’t actually have, for a job I haven’t yet been offered.